off hand but on queue

The Youth & Their “YOLO”

After hearing people in a mainly white-suburban area preach and screech YOLO the past few weeks, I’ve decided that there’s an art to the “YOLO”.

In case you weren’t already aware, one does not simply say YOLO after a brisk walk down the hall. No, it has to be a truly significant decision or act that validates a YO-LO.

Still confused? I’ll try to enlighten you with two very real life examples that could have a profound impact on the YOLOer’s physique.

“Should I buy one bag of Otis Spunkmeyer cookies from the lines or two? YOLO! I’m getting three!”

- The Freshest of Freshmen

Or —

“I’m so excited for the DWTS* finale tonight!! Ugh, but the TLC special “My Life as 600lbs” is on at the same time! YOLO I have TiVo, both it is!”

- Anybody with a shred of sanity

And, if you don’t understand how to “YOL-O” properly after that, then you’re not worthy of uttering even a letter of the sacred acronym.

So get out there, folks, and live a little! Actually, live a lot because, well, ya know, YOLO! ✌ *If you don’t know what DWTS stands for, google that shit. It’s my mother’s life.

so I see art’s taken a new low for me? #whatthefuck 

so I see art’s taken a new low for me? #whatthefuck 

are You a tree or a flower?

The tree,

The flower.

Both have beauty,

Both have power.

The tree takes time

Commitment is required.

It lives past its prime

Occasionally growing tired. 

The tree is rewarding.

You see it grow.

Sometimes it’s pouring,

But you’ll always know.

The flower blooms,

It’s always fast.

The fact looms –

It never lasts.

The flower is intense.

Often too strong.

The feelings immense.

But not for long.

It was destined to be.

My name is a flower.

Yet I hope to someday see

Something of a tower. 

I guess we’re all a little quick to judge, eh? 

(Source: anthagio, via kookymunster)

the name of the Game

The name of the game is 

Loss 

And I believe I’ve just

Won. 

19 things I learned (and probably already knew) over Spring Break

In order of when I learned it

1. TSA sucks
2. There are places more boring than Barrington
3. It is possible to get sick of roast beef
4. I’ll never take an effortless conversation for granted again
5. John Locke is in the casket in Lost
6. It’s painfully easy to miss your friends
7. U of I is nice
8. U of I is filled with Asians
9. I need stronger morals
10. Rock climbing could be anyone’s hidden talent
11. Swearing is unbecoming
12. Pillow pets make for shitty pillows
13. I’m a shlub.
14. Coco Mero has great cookies n’ cream fro yo
15. Simple Plan is the epitome of “teen angst”
16. I don’t want to go to work
17. Nothing compares to sleeping in your own bed.
18. As much as I’d like to think I don’t have regrets, I do
19. Don’t regret regret.

“Regret doesn’t remind us that we did badly, it reminds us that we know we can do better.”
— Kathryn Schulz
Not my people

Hahaha oh Jesus Christ. Talk about out of my comfort zone. Well that try-out/audition was… Yeah. I’m glad I went and I’m glad I know what it’s like to totally just eat shit at something but I think that’s enough failure for one month. Haha yeahh now I’m going back to *not* theatre. Oh well! I’m just happy I tried

Setting Myself Up Just To Be Shot Down?

Lately, I’ve been feeling rather adventurous. I don’t know if it’s because I’m not doing track this season or just because I’ve kind of narrowed my interests; regardless, I’m trying something new. I’m going out for the Spring Play/Experimental Play. Now I know that I have absolutely no theatre experience aside from the Lines Elementary play in which - if I recall correctly - “I was a lot of things”. The way I see it, I’ve really got nothing to lose and, although I’d love to make either play, I’m okay with being cut too. As a matter of fact, I don’t expect to make it but if I did, well, that’d just be icing on the cake.

It’s just - I’ve realized fairly recently that - if my life went how I wanted, I’d be on T.V. or a radio personality. Does that sound shallow, unsophisticated .. too easy? Maybe. I’d like to think not though. I probably sound incredibly naive and I’m sure some will scoff at me - really I can’t blame ya - but it’s what I want and, as I’ve said before, I’m not the kind of person who [easily] gives up on their dreams. 

Anyways, I believe that it’s just as important to fail as it is to succeed. So I guess that means that, by going out for this, I could very well be practicing what I preach. Granted, I don’t really preach all too often or so I’d like to think. 

I’ve kind of been second guessing it though. I mean, what person ever wants to fall flat on their face, be at the bottom? No one. Yet, for some reason, I find that I’m voluntarily putting myself in that position. (Damn, I must really want a change of pace.) I just think that the reward outweighs the risk in this situation. I mean a moment of humiliation vs. memories filled with gratification.. what would you choose? Rejection is important but, oh, success sounds really nice. 

Ah, I’m too late to the game though. It’s Junior year and I’ve never taken theatre or anything of the sort and I’m going out for a play? These people who tryout are fantastic, skilled in their craft! Not me, talk about rough around the edges. I don’t even know how the hell to handle a cold reading.. I don’t know where to begin, if I’ll convey the right emotion.. if I’ll convey any emotion. I suppose worst case scenario I’ll just serve as a confidence booster for the other nervous kids. They’ll be able to say, “Hey, at least she doesn’t know what she’s doing either!” 

The only reason why I think I have a very small shot is because, in a way, you and I act every day. We use a different word for it sure; we call it lying. We put on that pretty facade that’s much more pleasing than our real feelings. That’s acting.. is it not? Lying, pretending, deceiving.. call it what you want, it all means one thing — acting. 

So, hell, I’m going for it! This was a pretty spontaneous decision but I already turned in my form and signed up for audition dates so I couldn’t back out. 

Well, if anyone reads this besides me, I hope you guys like the new page design! (You can only view it on a desktop/laptop) Hope you guys take chances and a risk every now and again; it’s fun!


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